13 week appointment

Thursday I got off work early, came home, watched Grey's Anatomy and Private Practice and then was WAY too excited to sleep. There was a chance I would find out the sex of my little bug. I was so excited. I finally calmed down and fell asleep a little after midnight.

About 2:15 I woke up and it felt like I wet the bed (something I consider often when its one of those every hour nights lol). I thought maybe it was just sweat or something disgusting, so i just continued onto the bathroom like normal. I turned the light on, sat down on the toilet and there was blood EVERYWHERE. I mean dripping, drenched my pants, soaked to my leg, and many other very unpleasant places.

I freaked, I cleaned it up a little bit and ran into my mom and dad's room. I said "mom, mom, mom, MOM!" (getting slightly louder everytime, she hates being yelled at to wake her up) She mumbled some type of reaction and I told her I was bleeding. She said "you are? OH NO!" It looked like it was stopping and it was turning brown, like it wasn't fresh anymore.

We looked online at different possibilities, the likeliness of it being a miscarriage or if it was possible the baby was still okay. My dad came in and offered to give me a Priesthood blessing, something I felt very good about having to save my little tiny baby. (during my blessing, my nose started bleeding, wtf!) So the bleeding finally stopped about 3:30 so I laid back down, on my left side, and tried to sleep. I called Cody and made him talk to me all night long.

About 4:45, still talking to Cody, I felt like i was sitting in blood again. I went into the bathroom, sure enough I was bleeding again, pretty heavy this time. I was so scared at this time but too scared to wake my parents up again. I just laid on the bathroom floor waiting for it to stop.

it finally stopped about 6 so I fell asleep until about 8. I woke up, took a shower and got ready for my appointment. The ONLY reason I didn't go to the hospital was because my regular appointment was at 10 AM.

Cody came and picked me up and we went to my appointment. Dr Housel was about 30 minutes behind, so we just sat in the waiting room. I was nervous, but at the same time very peaceful. I had a pretty good feeling that everything would be okay and work out. I told the nurse I was having some bleeding and she let my Dr. know. He said well lets check things out. Sure enough, little baby bug had a strong heartbeat. looking more like a baby now more than ever. I could see the spine and watch he/she move around. It was incredible. It never gets old watching he difference from week to week.

He said to monitor myself, start resting, don't work for the next few days, and if it got heavier to call him or go to the E.R. I wasn't able to get work off, so Cody, being saint, worked for me so I didn't have to. I laid around all day, my mom brought me home some pizza and her, minjung, and I watched oceans 13, until bed time!

Today I had to work for a few hours and the bleeding got the heaviest its been since the initial night it happened, but now that I am home its slowed down a ton!

I am so grateful that nothing was wrong with my little buggie. I never really realized how much I NEED this baby to be okay, until i thought she/he wasn't. I am so thankful for the opportunity to be a mother and raise this child. I already have SO much love for this little one and can't wait to meet her or him!!

Wrestling

I just wanted to post way fast about how awesome my baby brother is. All season he has been ranked first in the state for his weight class. Last night he got to go to UVU to the state all star dual. He won 9-2. He is so awesome and has worked so hard. He had to gain 35 lbs in muscle to be able to compete this year. Besides us both fighting for all the carbs in the house, he is my hero :) This last picture shows how dang cute his smile is. I love him so much. Way to go Mitch. Me and baby bean (as he calls the baby) are proud of you.

Baby news and the first 13 weeks! :)

On November 14th, I started my day just like any other. I went to work then decided to go to my friend Aubrey's. She had been trying to keep her baby inside of her and i figured she could definitely use some company. I got there about 6 or 630, we visited and then decided to go to Walmart. I had been so stressed. Somehow Aubrey and I got on the subject of babies and how I was a few days late. I told her it wasn't anything to worry about, probably just stress. She said 4 days is enough days to show, to go buy a test.

I went over to the "Family Planning" aisle, picked up a 4 dollar pregnancy test (something I was very familiar with taking). Aubrey said I could come to her house tomorrow morning and take it, but i got restless and walked right into the bathroom at Wal mart and took the test right there. Instantly, I saw the 2nd line start to appear. I was FREAKING OUT. I text Aubrey and said something demanding like "come here now!" She came in and said "are you okay?" I was in shock I am pretty sure i said something like "are you F&@%ing kidding me?" She instantly gave me a hug and said it didn't seem like a good thing but in a few short months I was going to have a baby. A real live baby of my very own, something I have always wanted.

Well, a few phones calls were made and I went to tell my parents, instantly. My dad did his usual rub his head thing, my mom LAUGHED, like how ironic is this. I told a few other family members and friends, honestly, some of their reactions actually really hurt. At a happy time in my life (not to mention how scary and alone I was feeling) for them to act how they did, was really hurtful. I have a hard time forgiving them (I know thats awful), and I have a hard time sharing my pregnancy and soon my babies life with them.

I went to the Dr on Dec 2, 2009. He said sure enough I was pregnant, I was measuring 6 weeks 4 days, and I was due July 27th, 2010. My little one was so cute, like a little peanut. Already does my little buggie have a cute personality. When most babies are hugging the side of the uteran wall, mine was standing up and down bobbing around. So cute. Dr Housel said he/she is going to be a handful, he can tell already. Then it was time to hear the heartbeat and OH MY GOSH. I have never heard anything more magical in my whole life. So fast and so strong. Oh, i love this little one so much already!

My second appointment was Dec 18th, 2009. The Doc said I could schedule my appointment for right before Christmas so I had a few pictures with an actual baby looking baby, for grandparents for Christmas. Of course, I jumped at the chance, what kind of new mommy doesn't want to see her baby every chance she gets. This time I was 9 weeks 1 day. He decided to try a belly ultra sound, which they usually don't do until 12 weeks. I could not see the baby, hardly at all, and we couldn't hear the heartbeat, but we saw it moving. I, of course, being the paranoid parent I am already, requested he do a vaginal so i could HEAR my babies heart, not just see it. He said okay, which I am so glad I did because I got SUCH better pictures of the bug.

My next appointment is this Friday, January 15th. I will be 13 weeks and 3 days and he said there is a pretty fair chance he will be able to tell what I am having! I will definitely post more pictures and let you know what I find out!

( I have never blogged before and I have no idea how to post pictures.. so ill describe them now)

-In the blue shirt, I am 12 weeks and 5 days, starting to "pop"

-In the black and white I am 12 weeks 2 days

-then baby 9 weeks 1 day

-baby 6 wks 4 days (standing up!)

-in the blue and grey I am 8 weeks 3 days and oh, so bloated.

-obviously pregnancy test galore, just to make sure!